As I posted about ancient history in the Peru itinerary blog I thought about how much our egos play a role in keeping us from reaching our potential by magnifying fear of how we’ll be perceived or judged.
Are we afraid we’ll look silly, weak, dumb, or any myriad of emotions which hold us back from expressing ourselves fully. Maybe if we strip down our ego we have the ability to reach a greater communion with one another, god, and universal consciousness. I think one of the main things that holds us back is that it makes us very vulnerable and that strikes at the deepest fear in our being.
My mom never knew a stranger because she was always and open book and was genuinely interested in what people were saying. I know this because I never saw her judge anyone or have ulterior motives with anyone. She had an amazing ability to have deep meaningful friendships with people. I really admired and had the pleasure of experiencing that in its truest form as her closest friends were by her side as she was battling cancer.
Now believe me I have put my foot in my mouth many times and have had the tendency to close myself off from the world and not let people in but I think that’s par for the course when your diving so deep into emotions while experiencing such a diverse set of life events that make you question everything.
Everyone has developed there own unhealthy ways of dealing with things that affect them from closing off, overcompensating with material processions, to deflecting our judgement of ourselves onto others.
It would be nice if we had more time to focus on developing ourselves, creating healthy coping mechanism, and spirituality. This takes more energy and time than falling into self destructive bad habits which the world is full of in all forms… Maybe that’s there plan.
Untitled, 1982, Jean-Michel Basquiat, American, 1960–1988, acrylic, spray paint, and oilstick on canvas, 72-1/8″ x 68-1/8″